VIDEO CHAT: Sarah Xum with Nicholas Tanek

I am an amateur cam model who performs mostly on Chaturbate and private shows on Skype.  I have a Fetlife profile that I use to meet new people and advertise my shows.  I am probably best known for my “makeup check” pics on Fet.  These are photos taken before each show to check my makeup and are posted online.  They seem to attract a variety of people to me and my shows.

I began experimenting with my appearance and identity from a young age, always changing to appease and please.  As I child I always enjoyed role playing and costumes.  “Sarah” evolved from being a fantasy self concept (that I created shortly after discovering sex) to my current appearance and behavior.  Her evolution was a slow one where behaviors and physical characteristics were added and subtracted, both actively and passively, throughout her adult life.  Sarah finally evolved into my default personality around 2010.

Though I sometimes exaggerate my appearance for my cam shows, I additionally play down my appearance at my straight/day jobs.  Currently, I work a myriad of part-time and temporary jobs.

I love cam modeling and often become drawn to doing it just for the socialization.  On cam, I feel as if I am hosting a party where my job is to mix and mingle and make all guest feel special.  Intermittently, I have begun undergoing hypnosis to strengthen my addiction to certain behaviors on cam such as undressing.  Ideally, I would like to become conditioned to only being able to be sexually aroused while on cam.

My wardrobe comes predominantly from thrift stores as I am an avid “scrounger”.

I taught myself to make up an application during puberty, probably from art class.  In a part of my life that I do not share, I am a painter.

My role models are all female pop culture characters.  I love caricatures.  The idea of the woman:  Buffy Summers…June Cleaver… Erica Kane.